The Last Days in BMT

BMT is almost over... The future seems really unsure and bleak for me now...

sigh... seems like I've fallen a long way since I vowed to do my best for this 2 years...

My resolve wavered and eventually crumbled to dust..

I'm really quite a sad case, I admit it myself...


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But over the course of time in BMT, I realized that I'm just not built for a military life, in spite of its physical nature and glorious agenda...

I learned a vast load of lessons in BMT, notwithstanding a few like -

1) I learned that "I" is the biggest motivator. There is no bigger motivator then "I". Without such, you can do nothing.

2) God DOES answer prayer directly after all!

3) Field camp is not meant for everybody. Going through it does not mean that you would be able to go through another one without difficulty again.

4) Leaders are bred, - from a long, long time ago. They are the ones who know when to fall, and they are the ones who take pride in their own achievements.

5) Life in the army is terrible, beyond your wildest imagination.



... and so, Andrew rethought his decision to be an officer, within the second month, rethought his decision to be a specialist, within the third month, and decided to tone down...



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Andrew is not suppose to be like that...

is he?

Sometimes... life takes you down paths that you don't want to, with no choice... But when the choice comes, you weigh the consequences and the outcomes...

sure, 9 months in OCS for the glory of being an officer - but just for the pride of becoming one?
Or is it the pat on the back that you have proven your worth?

my pat on my back is that if I manage to get a non-combat vocation, I'd never have to go through field camps, live firing and route marches again.

sure, 6 months in SISPEC for the glory of being a sergeant - come again? Sergeant? They're just barely above the rank of corporal, which is what most "non-command-school" people become. And for 6 months of hell?

... rethink.

Life in BMT was bad.
Nobody disagrees with me that life in Command School is worse.

Life in BMT is worst. - RE: WORST.
Can you imagine how life in Command School would be?




I stand by my opinions that I would be able to contribute to the SAF in greater capacity were I to maximize my skills (i.e. in Public Relations/Video Production/Music etc.)



I'm not really a leader, as much as I tried my best in the past...



"I" motivates "Me" to veer my course towards another, possibly brighter future...